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There is much talk about mindfulness and wellbeing at the moment and it seems to be a growing industry here in the UK. I feel that the key reasons for this are that a lot of people in the world are suffering either mentally, emotionally, physically or spiritually and just want to feel better, happier, and more fulfilled in life as well as more connected with each other. Over the years I have had my fair share of ill health and right now, although I have embarked on a path to wellness a while back, I am currently struggling with chronic fatigue and simply just not feeling well. I have been feeling really quite angry about it lately that my life seems so limited - I can only do so much in a day before having to rest in bed and going out in the evenings is a non starter. I just feel so helpless and like my life shouldn't be like this. I know people years older than me who can walk for miles each day and do so much more with their lives and my fatigue is making me feel like a failure sometimes. So today I am asking myself "what is the purpose of ill health from a deeper perspective - how might my suffering be serving me in some way and actually be a positive phase in my life?" I have been pondering these questions and here are my thoughts thus far.... Maybe my fatigue is a chance for me to SLOW my life down, take some time out to reflect, get out of the rat race and find my own calling in life? It is giving me a chance to really think about what I enjoy in life and who I want to spend time with. I have been spending more time doing energy healing and meditations with others in an effort to feel better and I am enjoying this connection with others and the insights I am gaining. I am feeling energetic shifts in myself and my connection and trust with the universe (God) is improving. As I surrender to my condition I feel the pressure lift from me. Deep down I feel like the universe has a plan for me and the world at large and that there is a very good reason why my life feels limited right now. I probably wouldn't be writing this post right now if I were feeling 100% fit and well! Also it has just occurred to me that at least I am able to sit up in bed and type these words - I am not having to sleep right now so things can't be that bad! I would love to hear your thoughts on this topic.... I am actually feeling a lot more clear headed for expressing these thoughts right now and feel more purposeful just for sharing how I have been feeling lately.